since my plan/goal for the near future is to find a partner, I am going to ramble a bit about 

RELATIONS vs RELATIONSHIPS

so, do you have a relation or a relationship with money, with your money, or with your partner/parents money?

I would love just to have a relation with it, to not be involved in a personal, deep way, to be reach and not care,

I would love money to be just something there, irritant and not posh to talk about it, but...

I have a relationship with money. It's one of hate and rarely love with it. Money. Hate them even when I don't need to count every penny. 

I have that I do worry about money. Yeah, I worry about the "kid", I worry about the cat, I worry about the house, garden, car, job, but most I worry about MONEY

and yet, I can't be careful enough when it's about money, and I am not careful enough 

Every month I plan to hide/save some. Every month there is a reason why I don't do it. I am too indulgent with me and I find reasons why I need to buy that

does this behaviour translates on how I handle other relationships? Do I treat my friends the same? Am I careless in other aspects of my life?

this rant emerged from some deep rage when I had to close a tab (online) full of gorgeousIneedthem shoes. Do I really need them? not really. But THEY are gorgeous...

big sigh...